Day 64 - The push.

This is when I try to avoid shopping. Every now and then I let my conscious get to me. I look at my bank balance. I try to think about the future. I get anxious. I worry that I am spending too much on my hobby. That I will one day have to face up to reality and stop buying - or worse, much worse - sell something!!!!!!     I then realise that the anxiety I feel when I don't or can't buy something is much worse - that I am missing out on something impossibly vital to my collection. That I will forever rue the moment and regret will fester within me.    It is an emotional dilemma and I do what all good yaoi fans do - retreat into fantasy and read a book. Today I mostly read all the Hidoku Shinaide doujinshis. They are awesome and calm me down. I love Maya as a seme - I really is well drawn!